oil and vinegar

Cooking is one of my many interests. I enjoy making delicious flavor for the people I love. Recently, I’ve made homemade salad dressings (which are super easy, very tasty, and a lot healthier than store-bought :) Have you ever noticed how difficult it is to mix oil and vinegar, though? You have to whisk vigorously to get them to mix at all, and if you let them sit for even a few minutes, you need to shake them up to mix again.

These days, I feel like salad dressing. My emotions are like oil and vinegar. Extremes that don’t mix well. On the one hand, I am overjoyed at the plans ahead for us. Belize is so much a part of who I am, why I breathe, that I cannot wait to get there. And I can’t imagine doing anything else. But at the same time, the sorrow of leaving weighs heavily on my heart. Behind every thought of being in Belize is the reality of saying goodbye to my life here. And I love my life here.

I love my family, my house. I love my church, and my church family. I love my friends who feel like family. I love our students and ministry here. I love the idea of growing old together in this house, and watching our grandchildren grow and play in the same rooms our children are growing and playing now.

I have to stop myself from getting overwhelmed at times, because I really do know that Jesus is far greater than any of those things, and while my life direction may be headed to places I never dreamed it would, that’s awesome!! Because my dreams were much smaller than God’s dreams for my life, and I am so thankful that He has a plan for me (for us) that is greater than we can imagine.